My mind is all flustered with thoughts and worries. Now I know the root problem. Things can be under control with proper thinking w/o involving emotions.

Been feeling the stress about my studies. Paying the price for not managing my time properly and taking for granted the time I had back in the early days of this semester. Now exams are right around the corner. 4 weeks from now to be exact. Then there is my finances. Currently I'm relying heavily on my parents which I really don't feel comfortable. Since the beginning of the year, I've been deciding whether I should get a full time job, part time job or no job until I graduate. I get a full time job, I would have problems dedicating time for my studies, a part time job would mean I have to work outside my field such as Sales, Admin, etc. No work? No dough. By the time I graduate, I would be 26 and a fresh graduate if I take a part time job outside my field. Not feeling too good about that because I feel I've lost enough time.

After talking to dear, I've decided! I've made my final decision to concentrate in getting through this semester first then I'll find a part time job. Most importantly I work hard for a good degree. Its true.. I'm blessed to have my studies and expenses taken care of. 26 yrs old a fresh degree graduate is not an issue rather than at 26 yrs old and still a diploma holder. I must treasure and focus on this opportunity that I have now.

I will not entertain negative thoughts. Thoughts of worry, thoughts of myself being incompetent, thoughts of bailing out of studies. I'll focus and work hard. I still have time to make amendments and make things right!

I thought Easter Drama production was a fresh concept. Fusing the past and future together and made it quite an enjoyable journey. They add a personal touch at the end of it in which I was impacted by it. Jesus loves us even though we turn our backs many times. Jesus experience betrayal twice by Peter and Judas, yet He still loves them unconditionally. Like a husband taking his adulterous wife back with wide open arms. All over the world, the worst crime you can commit is betrayal. You will get your citizenship revoked and blacklisted from entering the country! Imagine the level of love Jesus has for us up to this present day!

Today's drama made me think about my life. At times I did mistakes of omission and then feel bad after that. I asked myself how do people who love God, like Pastor Kong, abstain from sin? The answer: Relationship experience

When one experience God's love in a personal way. Like really know the heart of God kind of relationship. One would always bear God's feelings in mind like how a loving husband is to his wife. When they encounter a situation that they know their love ones would feel something against it, they are immediately reminded of it and would choose a choice that would be pleasing to his/her love one. Same with our relationship with God. How to establish that kind of relationship? Personal quiet time with God, enjoying His presence and communion with Him in your secret place. When God has a place in our hearts, He'll express himself in our lives. Then we shine for Him!

I want Him in my heart.

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